Mallory Smith was a young woman who, in her own words, had "big dreams and big goals."
When she was in high school, she set her sights on going to Stanford. After college, she hoped for a career where she could help people and "move the needle on something that's important." She wanted to write about the world and all its beauty. She wanted a life filled with travel and adventure. She wanted to fall in love.
But most of all, she just wanted to live a normal life. A life with normally functioning lungs that wouldn't hold her back from excelling at her favorite sports, volleyball and water polo, and from doing all the things that healthy teenagers and college kids get to do. A life without bouts of hemoptysis (coughing up blood), a peripherally inserted central catheter (PICC line), nebulizers, countless hospital stays, and the constant threat that Burkholderia cepacia—the family of deadly, antibiotic-resistant bacteria that clogged her lungs—would end her life before she could achieve those dreams.
Mallory was diagnosed as having cystic fibrosis (CF) at age 3, and like all CF patients, her lungs were vulnerable to bacterial infections that can exacerbate the condition and compromise lung function. That was enough of a challenge for any child to deal with. Then, at age 12, she found out her lungs had become colonized with B cepacia, which would substantially change the trajectory of her life.
Over the next 13 years, as the bacteria became resistant to every antibiotic Mallory's doctors tried, her lung capacity steadily diminished, and hospitalization became more frequent. For 10 of those years, she chronicled this experience—along with her frustrations, fears, hopes, and dreams—in her diary.
"I'm just sad and exhausted and drained and sick of being sick," she wrote on April 2, 2013. "I'm sick of what B cepacia is doing to me. It just doesn't want to cut me a break."
Mallory died in 2017 at age 25 following a double lung transplant and a last-ditch effort to save her life with bacteriophage therapy. But she never let CF and B cepacia prevent her from reaching for (and achieving) some of those dreams or from living a full and impactful life. In many ways, she used them as inspiration.
"Resistant bacteria does a lot of taking—of dreams, of time, of travel, of friendships, of freedoms, of potential, of plans, of lives," she wrote. "At the same time, it does give. It's given the creativity to reimagine my life, a skill that I wouldn't have needed to develop if everything had been easy and nothing was impossible."
Making the invisible visible
While it's a different type of crisis than the COVID-19 pandemic, antimicrobial resistance (AMR) is one of the most significant public health threats facing the world. The most widely cited study, published in The Lancet Infectious Diseases, estimates that drug-resistant infections contributed to nearly 5 million deaths globally in 2019 and were directly responsible for 1.27 million.
With bacteria becoming increasingly resistant to the current arsenal of antibiotics, and few new antibiotics on the way, those numbers are likely to rise in the coming decades. Yet the wider public doesn't see most of those deaths. Many occur in children in low-resource countries or in hospital intensive care units among patients battling other conditions.
"It's kind of an invisible threat, and until it hits you personally in your own life, you're unlikely to realize how serious a problem it is," Steffanie Strathdee, PhD, associate dean of global health sciences at the University of California San Diego School of Medicine, told CIDRAP News.
Furthermore, AMR is a complex topic, filled with scientific jargon and an assortment of acronyms that can confuse even those who are experts.
These are among the reasons why there's hope that the story of Mallory Smith, and the stories of others whose lives have been upended by antibiotic-resistant bacterial infections, can help "move the needle" on AMR. Mallory's story was first captured in Salt in My Soul, a posthumously published collection of 10 years of diary entries edited by her mother, Diane Shader Smith, per Mallory's instructions. This spring, Shader Smith published Diary of a Dying Girl, which contains more raw, unedited entries that provide a window into Mallory's emotional state and personal feelings about trying to live a normal life while fighting a deadly pathogen.